Take some time

Whenever you want to burst out at someone

Or blame them for not doing the right thing

Or want them to see the right thing

Or anything that involves not-so-happy response, take some time to respond.

It will calm you down.

Btw, take a minute every hour to calm yourself down, and eventually every response of yours will be calmed down.

A major writing project

I recently completed a major writing project. Something I have never done before.

It took a lot of me. In more ways than I had expected.

Here is what I lost in the process:

  • I had an epilepsy attack during the process. Because I woke up at 1o’clock to meet some mid-way timelines.
  • My days were screwed up. Because I did not schedule the writing process.
  • O wait. I did. First thing in the morning upon waking up. Because of which I continued losing the shine of my face as well as my productivity. Thus, the fits attack had to happen.
  • After that, I just could not sleep less than 7 hours. Thus, face’s lustre came back. But it made me reflect as to how much of the previous sacrifice was actually worth it.
  • More than the schedule, something that happened a lot in the process was a lot of my mood swings. I questioned myself if I should have picked this project up in the first place. I questioned myself if I had put a price tag to my soul by dealing with so much loneliness. I did not have an answer to why I picked up this project in the first place.

While I did deal with a lot in the journey of this project, I felt the happiest when I used to actually write.

That said, here are the good things that came out of the project:

  • I really felt good on shipping the project. Not because I wouldn’t be working on it anymore. I would. Rather because I would not have to deal with so many heartbreaking mood swings I used to have because of writing that project.
  • That said, I have now come to realise that creating content on social media is not going to get me where I want to get to. I have to think of other ways. Social media content is shallow. At least for the creativity I want to get to. I don’t mean it in a bad way, especially since I work with an influencer so social media technically pays my bills. However, deep work happens when you spend 23 hours and 45 minutes of the day away from social media.
  • The work is hard. Practice is all you need. But it is the daily grind that will eventually make you what you want to be – a great writer.

Everything else, EVERYTHING else is a distraction. Everything. Including the work you do. It may pay you to keep you busy. But to find your happiness in your work, you have to do the hard work that will still seem hard despite you making 7-8 figures.

Go do the hard work that is easiest to ignore. Run behind those 30 minutes of daily writing. You will make more than what you think. And it ain’t only money.

How did you feel?

No one is going to ask you that.

So you should do that to yourself.

Here is how I felt:

  • Walked over
  • Bought in lieu of time
  • Being treated nicely because I was working on a major project
  • Not sure if all of that is true or merely something I am not happy with
  • If I am not happy with it, why am I not changing it?
  • Why do I get drifted away when anyone is nice to me?
  • PS: Nishtha, it is not called being drifted away. It is being real towards love.
  • I felt literally weird for being paid money for some work and that’s it. Sometimes it feels like prostitution, albeit not of the body. And that’s scary. And scarry. Dealing with it in my own ways. Starting with changing my perception of it. But I also wonder, if there is any other way that part of work could become anything beyond paying and giving? Isn’t all work some sort of pay and get lost? I don’t know. But to introspect and to go deep into how to feel better is what I am going to think deeper into.

Write bad

The other day I was working on a writing project, and had to write a lot of bulk content.

After a certain point, even in that time-bound project, I happened to write some good stuff after some venting out of bad stuff.

In order to write good, start with writing bad. You will end up writing well eventually.

It’s lonely

It’s lonely. But no one can help you let go of your loneliness other than you.

The greatest victory of life is to find solace in your own company. Everything else is fleeting.

Think over it. Not OTT. Not best friend. Not someone who trusts you. Just your company, and the good content you consume that makes you a better version of you.

Everything else is a myth.

Day 1

What do driven people mean when they say: “This is Day 1 of my work that I have been working on, for long?”

I have been thinking on this for long. I think here’s what they mean:

That they will be humble the way they were at the start.
That they will remain curious.
That they will never rest on their laurels.
That they will be kinder.
That they will never let success get to their head.
That they will be better, but never get out of beginner’s mindset.

It takes everything to be a starter, when you start arriving.

Humility

Humility does not only mean kindness.

Humility also means:
– Asking for help
– Having a conversation when things aren’t as good
– Reaching out if you can help
– Getting out of your own self
– Not letting success get to your head/

Humility is like a muscle. You need to build it daily, or you lose it.
The sad part is it is easiest to lose humility when you gain success, the part when you should have the most of humility.