“I wanted to but I couldn’t….” is this the phrase you use a lot?
Let’s make it simple. You wanted to, however you couldn’t; because there was nothing bigger waiting for you.
To make it simpler, have a goal bigger than what you think is comfortable for you. Then you won’t “have to” stop doing something you shouldn’t. The grander goal will get you more comfortable and happier.
And wiser in discernment.