June end, I came out of a job at a startup where I was not only working as a full-time employee, rather building it, one brick at a time.
During my notice period there, I had thought I would miss it a lot once I move on.
Surprisingly, I do not miss it at all. Not the offsites. Not the meetings. Not the people (maybe). Not the perks.
At the onset, it may appear as if I am cold. But the truth is that I gave it so much that after moving on, there was nothing “missing” that I could have done. Which to me is a wonderful place to be in. You give your 500% when you are there (I literally had three roles there – leading the team, managing the Ops, being the Content Writer, and partial HR work 🙂 and then move on when you have moved on.
I do sometimes think, though, if X is doing their work well. Or how Y is managing when I was their go-to person.
Which tbh makes me proud more than déjà vu. Because it shows my values were aligned on work more than any other fancy thing that job brought with itself. And it did, a lot.
It turns out, that the biggest reward for being engaged in work is doing it really well. Which makes me proud of myself, before waiting for anyone else.