Your problem is you are not spending time knowing yourself.
Your problem is you want the benefits of social media content creation without even creating on social media!
Your problem is your think all your excuses are valid.
Your problem is you think life is unfair, you are always fair.
Your problem is you are creating your own trauma, not your parents.
Your problem is you think taking things slow and procrastination are the same things.
Your problem is that you do not even believe in yourself, let alone expecting someone else to believe in you.