Last week I met two of my friends together.
We used to be very close, but over time, one of them drifted apart. Let’s call her P. The other friend, A, and I are close. Still I asked A to call P to our catch-up.
Last night, I texted A that all the conversation became all about P and P. It was too draining too, and that I’d like to meet her only, next time.
She was okay meeting both of us, but she agreed to this.
An old part of me wanted to say sorry and say “let us all meet together”, but I am done being sorry for what I feel.
I love that friend, always have, forever will. But you cannot love anyone if you don’t love yourself. For me, loving myself comes with choosing whom I choose to spend my time with. So I will spend my time with people who energise me, not drain me.