You never know whether you and I will be alive after we go to sleep tonight.
Focus on what matters the most. Focus on living a life you are proud of. Make a plan for yourself.
Go shatter what all you have been doing for years and go become what you could become if you had no limits. Heroes are not born with a blue tick. Heroes create their historical lives by the acts they do daily and that creates a hero, even when no one is watching.
So go, whose permission are you waiting for? You only need your permission. Speak your truth. Be aligned with your own values even when you are criticised. Only those people criticise who wish they could have become like you. So pay no heed to naysayers. We need you in your clothing, life is too short to allow anyone else to live it for you.