Of all the hurts you are trying to conjure up to yourself and all the people you are waiting to walk up to you and plead forgiveness, learn to forgive your own self. Learn the lesson that storm brought along.
When you do so, you relinquish the attachment to wait for people to love you in any way. In so doing, you love your own self.
From that point of self love, comes acceptance and compassion for the others. You come to terms with the fact by forgiving, not condoning that act. The bad mood that used to draw blessings away till now does not keep hold of you any longer.
