Speaking a lie may seem the best way to escape the tyranny of not facing the consequences of the mess.
FYI, it will land you into greater mess.
Speak your truth, even when your voice shakes. Be truthful, because it will make you win the battle of being dishonest with yourself.
Also, as per expectation theory, you get what you give. The Golden Rule says “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.”
Do you really want lies to be put on your platter? No, you don’t.
So why go for temporary acceptance in lieu of long term hurt and maybe resentment?
I know you don’t want that for yourself. So, please speak your truth even when your voice shakes. If nothing else happens, you will go to bed with peace every single day.