If there is a terrible hurt, it is seeking a bigger healing.
Nothing that happened is waste. None of those. The most heart freaking experiences were there to make you go deep within and seek out the treasures that lie unearthed.
If you could do one favour to yourself, so be it: stop beating yourself over and over again. It’s over. If you knew better, you’d have done better.
Now you know better. So do better. Do not let yesterday’s responses be reflected in a clean slate of present and a spotless future. That is the beginning of healing.
You deserve you. Anything lesser is not worth it.