Marathon without training

I asked my therapist, “What if I tell myself that it is okay if someone responded in a bad manner? They might as well be suffering, right?”

She said:

Of course, it is a good thing to run a marathon.

But the best runners, train themselves before the event.

However, if you go haven’t trained yourself at all and you get up one day and go run, can you imagine what all pain will you endure?

And now imagine how long have you been running this marathon!

So the way to be actually able to run that marathon is to train our brain, to understand our emotions first, and why we feel in the pain.

Otherwise, it is only a continuous run of pain, not a marathon in reality.

Something really deep to reflect upon.

Irrelevance

I often think about irrelevance.
What will make you irrelevant?

When someone else takes your job?
When you grow but miss your roots?
When you think there is something that, if taken away from you, you will lose your identity?

The truth is, whatever you have, will be taken away from you.
If not now, on your death.

Thus, the fear of irrelevance is technically the insecurity of giving up all you have.

Now that you know that it will go away anyway, how to deal with it?

  1. By being the most positive person you know.
  2. By being the most thoughtful person you know
  3. By making people so powerful that they grow and nurture by themselves.
  4. By not worrying about ego satiety, and caring about how your vibes nurture people.
  5. More than anything else, know that you matter, and you bring things to the table that no one else can.

Benefits of walking

Off-late, I have restarted my age old habit of evening walks, and I couldn’t be happier!

Some benefits:

1. Gives much needed mobility to the body.

2. Makes my intuition active, instead of seeking refute in the screen.

3. I get fresh oxygen!

4. Get to witness so many stories.

5. My eyes change their focus, and that’s awesome.

6. I have ideas for writing, just like this one.

7. I learn to forgive without being asked for.

8. I get the much needed me time without devices. (PS: I don’t carry my phone, nor do I wear my smart watch there.)

9. It is a discipline that is so much fun, that you cannot not do it! And that’s beautiful 🙂

I don’t know, and that’s fine…

I don’t know if my work sitting in a remote silo is making difference in the world.
I have no idea if the people I care for actually care for me (so I could move on or continue lol)

But you know what…
Sometimes not knowing is super powerful.

Because it makes you do your own thing.

Doing your own thing without the influence of others, makes you more of your better self.
It is under that “better self” that you become stronger and okay with the fact that the world is not okay with you!

Today I almost cried during therapy

Today I was talking to my therapist, and I don’t know how I spoke about two different sides of me:

The one is the kiddish side of me who wants to come out, and the other is the side that is expected to be mature.

And she said a line: “If people around us are not giving us that space, you better go take it.”

She also went on to tell a story, saying if you are sitting on a bench in a park, enjoying your view, and someone comes and sits next to you, what would you do?

“I’ll get up and leave!”

“Most people would shift a bit, then again shift a bit if they come closer, and over time, they would just fall of the bench. In the process, they also ruin their view. What if you just claim that view to be yours, that no one can take away?”

“I agree, I just get up and leave from such views, and keep wandering…”

OMG, she makes me speak such truths about myself that are so buried inside!

Now she has given me a task to be more spontaneous and less calculative during the week. Fingers crossed :))