Death has taken bigger toll on 2020 than we had ever expected.
It has become a daily feat to conquer instead of facing it at the end of the life.
However, when death comes with a possibility threat, it also comes as a reminder:
1. That if it comes to grab us, let it take us away with our happiness, instead of letting its fear take away our happiness.
2. That there are people who need our support and just our emotional presence. We can always be there for them, even if we are not around them. Let our loved ones know you care. Because you do. And because they need you.
3. This moment is all we have. We don’t know what’s next, however we do own what we have now.
For almost half a year, we’ve all been working remotely. While the new world comes along with its advantages and disadvantages, there is something under the covers we fail to see:
Since we lack communication, we fall in the trap of assuming. That assumption is often towards the negative side.
Perhaps we can’t have more communication with others anyway.
So why not start having those with our own selves? Why not start figuring out the most powerful meanings, when the meaning is up to us? Why do we have to just go the negative way?
Do you sometimes feel overwhelmed by what the world has caused you?
It’s like nothing is working out, and you have struggles to solve.
And you go about your work.
Then, all of a sudden, in a movement of ether, you have a conversation with a co-worker or anyone who doesn’t know about your current mood, and bam! You are all set!
You are back to your energy, your charisma and back to rocket-speed.
That’s the most fascinating thing about life.
The question is,
“If someone else could do that to us, will we always wait for others?”
To demean people isn’t truthful. It’s lack of self-control.
To check phone every three minutes is not being there for your team. They want you to be easy before anything else.
As we get caught up in this endless wave of doing what the world says is right, we forget that the world needs more people who are aware, not a photocopy of the world we need to change.
When did I move from giving tonnes of acceptance to needing it?
When did I move from cheerful, super happy and full of charm kid to crying whole day?
Never have I ever waited like this. Waiting for this time to go away. Don’t know when. I have written positivity and power for eternity. Then why so much truth? Why am I documenting my rock bottom? Why?
I have no idea. Other than the fact that I want it all out of my system.
And also one more reason: The ones suffering from mental health problems are already strong. They have to muster the strength to get back up. So don’t think they need any help. They spread awareness on it so that more people could become empathetic towards each other and more cases of depression stop from coming. That is the only reason.
Yesterday was a day purposefully missed out on blog.
Played badminton with cousins after a really long time. Covid has brought all the memories of having fun with each other back.
Also attended two online classes of two people I admire a lot.
And said no to someone who has no sense of respecting someone else’s (and their own) time. Without letting them know. Felt great. Learnt better tactics.
Honestly I could have done that. But I wanted me time. Sadly, our society values and respects us only when we are “doing something” and not when we are chilling and spending time with family.
That’s sad. And we need to change it. How? A. By taking some me time. B. By not judging others when they take their own.
Society just doesn’t go for a bath and gets cleaner. We do it each day by what we do. And by what we choose not to do.
Until they do. For every interaction they have with their kids.
The abuse, sadly, is something which could not be filtered for profanity because it does not use profane words.
It comes in mild words and powerful programming like:
“You won’t be able to do it.”
“Don’t do this. You will fail.”
“You are no good.”
Parents keep telling this to kids, until it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.
None of us had a perfect childhood. That’s not the problem, that’s the solution.
Because now we have the pen to write the script. As difficult as it may sound, we all write our script daily.
We may choose the script today. Since it is presumably not going to be a repeated one, it is going to take efforts. Yet without efforts, do you want your today to be equally self abusive?
Instagram stories shows the world what you are doing.
The only problem being: no one really gets happy on seeing the fact that you are doing great, and they aren’t!
The point then, is to have a life that others would want to draw inspiration and action from, instead of just allowing them to tap tap tap and criticise you and go away.
It’s a difficult process – to go away from what the world likes towards what they really really want.
The only easy process is eating mindlessly. Everything else takes efforts.
Recently I have started going deep into thoughts of Naval Ravikant and Kapil Gupta.
If you don’t know who they are, I won’t tell you bro, google them 🙂
And after reading their material, listening to their words – a strange thing happens!
All of a sudden, I derive zero pleasure in looking at posts on LinkedIn and Instagram.
The mind is drifted to a different plane of thinking, all of a sudden.
A place where it does not want to return from.
A place where the mind feels most nourished.
It’s immaculately strange, and conveniently the most beautiful place to be in.
Honesty I don’t know how to end this because I don’t want to preach you something, however I do want you to nudge to think deeper.
The mind thinks useless thoughts because it is conditioned to think so infinitely.
What if we start feeding our mind such such such powerful thoughts? Most people won’t, because misery loves company. The one or two that would, will change the world forever.
Last night was something I would remember for a long time.
Ever since the time lockdown began, I was in Delhi – where I stay owing to my work. Couldn’t go to home.
Yesterday we finally got the permission to move from there to my hometown via hired taxi. It was four of us – me, a friend, her brother and the taxi driver.
We had just crossed Jaipur and at the border of Jaipur and Tonk – there was a police patroling like it’s always there.
While crossing from there, the driver perhaps dozed off and blew away four barricades at a drizzling speed. The fifth one happened to finally drag the car for twenty metres – until it finally moved to a zigzag pattern, rendered the car to forcibly stop.
It was 1AM.
The moon was sparking bright.
In the month of May in the state of Rajasthan, the cool breeze was refreshing.
And then this accident. We managed to handle it. The police was extremely kind to us.
Another car was passing from the highway and the driver noticed the number plate on our car was of our hometown – where they were going. The driver offered to help. We were skeptical.
However going in the same broken car was nothing short of dangerous – here the police was there, later on we weren’t promised of police support.
We thought over it, deliberated it for a few minutes – until we finally asked the driver to share his ID.
And bam!
When my friend clicked the picture of his ID, she realised she has seen this ID a couple of days back.
She scrolled through her pictures and realised he was the same driver who had cancelled his trip to coming to pick us up because he was appointed to go somewhere else.
What a coincidence!
We went on with this driver, made the former driver go with his car, called his manager in the middle of the night to no avail – and off we went.
All sorted out.
With just one thing – yesterday as I escaped death just by a few inches, I almost had an intuition at 10 PM in the car that I better start meditating and create an aura of safety and protection around us.
God moves in mysterious ways, his wonders to perform – said Napoleon Hill in Think and Grow Rich.
PS: In this entire episode from 1:10 AM to 1:55 AM, I felt zero anxiety or restlessness. Someone is mysteriously moving along.
PPS: Btw here’s a pic of clean sky in the otherwise busy evening of Noida. Enjoy!
Last night was something I would remember for a long time – for all the good reasons!
